Yesterday, I Cried


At the Petting Zoo......

It started innocently enough.

I got home from work Sunday morning, and followed my usual routine of getting a big hug and kiss from my Pookah bear and listening to his gibber jabber while nodding my head thoughtfully.  And then C-Dub dropped the bomb:

“We’re going to the zoo today.”

The zoo! I started to get excited, But reality set in as I remembered that I had to go to sleep right away because….I have to work again tonight.

My spirits plumeted down to my shoes.

“But, it will be his first trip there…I wanted to go.”

“Well, when would that be? You’ve never home on the weekend.”

“Saturday morning…”I protested weakly.

But meekly, and somewhat in shock, I just took Pookah down for his breakfast.  Being the efficient me, I found a coupon for C-Dub( Pookah can still get in for free since he is under 2)that I had been hording for all of us on just the right Saturday morning.  Then I packed a bag with all of the essentials for a trip to the zoo:

  • ice water
  • diapers
  • change of clothes
  • snacks
  • sunscreen
  • bug spray
  • wet wipes
  • a wash cloth
  • camera

Yes, the man wanted to take my other baby, my camera. 

So, I packed them up, got the stroller out of my trunk, put it in his, got Pookah dressed, sun screened up, shoes on.

Then they kissed me goodbye and walked out the door.

And I sat down on the floor and cried like a baby.

I cried at being left behind on a sunny hot summer weekend morning while my baby went to the zoo without me for the first time.

I cried at being left to put the meat in the crock pot for Sunday Dinner.

I cried while I cleaned up the kitchen from the mess the two of them made while I was gone. Working.

I cried while I put clean clothes in the dryer and put new ones left on the bathroom floor in the wash.

I cried because my husband thought it was an awsome idea to take his son to the zoo so that Mommy could sleep in peace in the house.

I cried because I felt like that kid in grade school who always got left behind……..

And then, I just cried.


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28 Responses to “Yesterday, I Cried”

  1. Babs says:

    CDub should have taken a weekday off so that you could have experienced Pookah’s first visit to the zoo together. I’m sorry you missed it.

  2. kita says:

    I agree your husband could have taken another day off or he could have waited. I understand the feeling I hated working weekends/evenings when my son was little. I cried because I missed a lot of stuff because I worked. I promised myself I would never work weekends or evenings again but with times so tough I am willing to let go of my evenings but not my weekends just yet.

  3. krissy says:

    Awww! This made me sad a little bit. I’m sure hubby meant well. Tried to get out of your way while you rested but I don’t wanna miss any of my childs 1st either.

  4. MrsTDJ says:

    Hugs to you sis! I don’t think that C-Dubs actions were malicious at all. I think he attempted to give you some time and space, not realizing that you’d be missing a first. IMO, hubbies are the greatest at acknowledging the significance of certain moments until we bring them to their attention. Looking forward to hearing about your family’s first time at the zoo TOGETHER. :)

  5. Quiet Dreams says:

    I’m so sorry you missed the zoo.

  6. Awww I totally understand the tears, sorry you missed it but I’m sure CDub just wanted to give you a day to yourself. Just tell him you want to be there for the other big 1sts but the guys need their time together (male bonding, scratch their butts, type of stuff) anyway.

  7. Mommy Boots says:

    Oh, mama. I’m so sorry. :(

  8. Oh, mama I’m so sorry that you felt left behind. I totally understand. When my hubby takes baby out so I can rest, I always feel bad and miss him oodles and oodles. So sorry, but next time you’ll be there!!

  9. Aww. What a sad feeling. I guess, though, you could look at it as a bonding moment between your guys. A guys day, as it is. Take the peace and quiet as a time to recharge your batteries so you’ll be ready for the next parenting adventure!

  10. Monique says:

    I love, LOVE, love the zoo!

    Like I think some of the animals recognize my voice!

    *glitter hug*

  11. elizabeth says:

    Ahhhh, =/ did you at least get some good sleep? #commenthour

  12. Jenny Bucket says:

    Can I give you a giant hug?

  13. Amber says:

    Oh poor mama! At least they took the camera, so you can see all the fun pics & relive it with him! #commenthour

  14. carol anne says:

    Awwww … So sweet and so sad. Maybe you can slip away for one day with him at zoo on crisp clean fall day?

  15. Preshus Me says:

    Oh sweetie. This is so sad! I’m sorry they had to go without you. I hope he got some great pictures.

  16. Sarah says:

    I almost started crying along with you! I think sometimes its hard for men especially to understand the sentimental aspect of first outings like this. You did the right thing because you did what was best for your child which was letting him spend fun time with his Dad. Hopefully next time the husband will be more understanding.
    Sarah @ madeinusachallenge

  17. I’m just so sorry that you had to miss that time with your son. That just totally sucks! I can’t think of any other word for it. Just know that there will be so many other “firsts” that you will get to experience with him.

  18. trininista says:

    As I told you mama, lots of other firsts to come and I agree with the comment, there will be that first time when you go to the zoo together…as a family. That would be awesome!

  19. Karolina says:

    Visiting from comment hour (almost a week late!). It’s understandable that it was hard for you to miss a moment like that in your child’s life. I’m sorry you got left behind!

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